A road less traveled

taking the first step

2009-12-08T20:19:00.003-05:00

I am going to start following the weight watchers point plan, well I have been following it for a week and weigh in tomorrow. I will be joining after the holidays. I am excited I personally have seen a lot of success with this program with people I know.

I feel good about taking the first step, making the change and starting this journey

I weighed in last week at 237 and fingers crossed will be down tomorrow

I am writting everything down and that is an eye opener

After sales and coupons

2009-12-04T17:17:00.001-05:00

All and all not a bad day at shaws

Before sales and coupons

2009-12-04T16:40:00.000-05:00

Remodeling2

2009-09-13T19:55:00.013-05:00

and that's it so far
:)

Remodeling

2009-09-13T19:48:00.006-05:00

We just bought our house and we got it cheap cause we are doing a ton of work to it. Here is the living room before and so fars!!

veggies from the garden

2009-09-13T19:46:00.003-05:00

I was so excited when I picked all this from my garden today!!! 3 pumpkins, 1 Zuchini and 1 Cucumber.

Give away!!!

2009-09-12T08:48:00.002-05:00

Hey there head on over to Stretchingabuckblog.com/2009/09/giveaway-chicco-talking-vacation-car.html and check out the toy she is giving away I think this would be perfect for my little guy for christmas!

happy blogging

Sunday Paper Day

2009-08-30T08:27:00.003-05:00

Today is Sunday and I am going to go to the store and get 2 papers this week for coupons and then I am going to ask my local store if before the paper company comes to get the unsold papers if I can have some of the left over inserts. Hopefully it won't be a problem

shopping

2009-07-05T10:34:00.001-05:00

america's stonehendge

2009-07-03T15:48:00.005-05:00

we had a great day!!!

enjoyed hiking and checking out the artifacts

we went to america's stonehenge today

sandbox

2009-06-26T08:55:00.001-05:00

peekabo

2009-06-26T08:54:00.001-05:00

Loves his cozy coup

2009-06-15T13:09:00.001-05:00

Cozy coup action

2009-06-15T12:49:00.001-05:00

Topsy turvey

2009-05-25T20:19:00.003-05:00

Upside down

2009-05-25T20:19:00.001-05:00

Mama that light makes me laugh

2009-05-25T20:17:00.000-05:00

Daddy and elmo are funny

2009-05-25T20:16:00.001-05:00

Hanging with dada is fun

2009-05-25T20:14:00.001-05:00

Mama I like pasta

2009-04-08T20:43:00.000-05:00

Look mom I can do laundry

2009-03-22T21:11:00.001-05:00

My sweet nurser

2009-03-22T21:08:00.000-05:00

Daddy got hurt but he's ok

2009-03-21T07:20:00.001-05:00

Check out my new jacket mama

2009-03-21T07:11:00.001-05:00

Aj tames a zebra

2009-03-21T07:08:00.000-05:00

Hey zay watcha doing

2009-03-20T20:45:00.001-05:00

Ha I see you

2009-03-20T20:44:00.007-05:00

Dancing with my nana

2009-03-20T20:44:00.005-05:00

Hey what are you doing up there?

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Gee mom do I have to wear all this

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Hanging out with my uncle riley

2009-03-20T20:40:00.000-05:00

Bathing with my sis

2009-03-20T20:03:00.001-05:00

Smiling baby

2009-03-20T19:58:00.001-05:00

I haven't updated this so I will be putting a lot on

Aj blows kisses

2009-03-20T19:57:00.000-05:00

Snowing again

2009-02-18T18:25:00.000-05:00

Snowing again in the northeast. I am so over winter this year I am ready for nice weather gardening and spending time outdoors

It's been a while

2009-02-13T15:25:00.000-05:00

but I am back! and I am now mobile blogging so I will be coming at you from the road! It is nice to be back on I couldn't get in from work and then at home with 3 kids its tough to get things done.

But I am back and I am in a better place.

The dark side...

2007-11-07T14:05:00.000-05:00

I don't remember having such a hard time with the last two pregnancies of course the last one was 9 years ago. I didn't have the nausea or the heartburn. This time around I am nauseous and I have major heart burn and this shortness of breath thing that is wiping me out. But in the end we all know it's worth it.

Your new resident is nearly an inch long — about the size of a grape — and weighs just a fraction of an ounce. She's starting to look more and more human. Her essential body parts are accounted for, though they'll go through plenty of fine-tuning in the coming months. Other changes abound: Your baby's heart finishes dividing into four chambers, and the valves start to form — as do her tiny teeth. The embryonic "tail" is completely gone. Your baby's organs, muscles, and nerves are kicking into gear. The external sex organs are there but won't be distinguishable as male or female for another few weeks.

I want to Scream it from the mountaintops!

2007-10-31T11:53:00.001-05:00

We are Pregnant!!!

Your baby is now 5/8 of an inch long, about the size of a kidney bean. New this week: Webbed fingers and toes are poking out from your baby's hands and feet, his eyelids practically cover his eyes, breathing tubes extend from his throat to the branches of his developing lungs, and his "tail" is just about gone. His arms have lengthened, too, and his hands are now flexed at the wrist and meet over his heart. His knee joints have formed, and his feet may be long enough to meet in front of his body. In his brain, nerve cells are branching out to connect with one another, forming primitive neural pathways.

The flipped switch

2007-08-13T08:06:00.000-05:00

I have been suffering from anxiety and major panic attacks lately. It started about a month before my wedding when the final planning and the wait to make sure everything came together was going on. I thought that it would pass and that I would get over it as soon as all the wedding stress was over... well not so much I saw my doctor before the wedding they gave me something to get me through the next month and then I had a follow up. It didn't go away she said because of my age and the stress a switch may have been flipped and I may have anxiety now, and they put me on a maintenance medication which I stink at taking anything everyday I have tried with vitamins and I have tried "the pill" and I have tried even with antibiotics when I was sick I am awful at this.
Well stupid me hasn't been taking it and yesterday I had the WORST panic attack ever it lasted hours and at one point it was so awful I was shaking and crying, felt like I couldn't breath.

I am posting to see if anyone else out there has them and what they do is there a good way to control them or if you are having one any techniques to calm yourself down so that you don't make it worse or have it last damn near all day.

I never realized how big a deal this was I have heard people say they had panic attacks and I thought they meant normal freak outs, that they couldn't handle stress well but this is crazy you can't control and it you feel like you are having a freaking heart attack.

2 Rants 1 Post

2007-08-08T13:45:00.000-05:00

The first is work related: I am a payroll service rep and I get official and legal documents faxed to me all day long and I can't for the life of me understand why 3/4 of the time peopel write illegibley on these things. No I can not pay you unless I have a fully completed legible I9! The government has said so and I like my job and refuse to lose it over you now fill the form out RIGHT and so that I can read it!

Ok better now rant #2 and I know some of you will feel the same way I do. I LOVE craigslist one of my absolute favorite websites, who doesn't but I have a problem as of late if you look under community and pets there are heap loads of people SELLING thier family pets. They got the dog 6 months or a year ago and figured out they can't take care of it so they are listing them as "rehoming" with a fee of 200 dollars or more??!!! I get it if you moved or have to move and can't keep the pet or due to an illness or allergy fine but don't sell your family pet check out the people you want to rehome it to, go to thier house and check out how they live, do they have pets if so are they licensed and do they have vet paperwork on thier animal chances are if they take care of thier pet they will take care of yours if they are willing to take it into their home. Anyone can come up with a couple hundred bucks if they want to are you really making sure that your pet goes to a good home if you take money for it ummmm NO! all you are doing is profitting off an animal you originally took into your home and said you would be resposible for. And the excuse that rescue shelters charge isn't ok to use they take these dogs in and give them the full vet treatment and spay or neuter them they ussually are a non profit business and have to pay the people who are working thier yes you probably took your dog to the vet but it was your dog and you are supposed to take care of your animal now you have decided you can't and want someone not only to open thier home to your animal and make it thiers but you want them to pay you, I have seen some charge upward of 500 or more that is not right. Don't get me wrong there are legit reasons to have to rehome the family pet and craigslist is a good resorce if you use it properly. We took in our big dog through this but I insisted on going to the house with our existing dog to make sure they got along, also to see where the dog was coming from and to understand why the family needed to find him a new home. I found out that he was well taken care of but because they had two bigger dogs he became timid and it wasn't good for him since we have gotten him he has come out of hi shell and he is a wonderful dog. And I am grateful for him I am always looking on petfinder (that is were we got sneakers) and craigslist because if it were up to me I would take all the animals in the world in of course it's not all up to me but I would never sell my pets there is a difference between selling and rehoming do a little research chances are your pet will be better off if you do.

She's Back

2007-08-06T10:29:00.000-05:00

and I couldn't be happier! She came home Friday night and we all cuddled on the couch and just hung out. Saturday we had my friend's father's 50th birthday so the kids ran around and played in the pool, we got home about 6 and went in our pool for a while. Yesturday was spent in the house, Jman and my daughter made breakfast (chocolate chip pancakes) and then we did yard work and lounged in the pool. My daughter and I were able to have a great conversation while we were in the pool by ourselves. She is so happy to be home and was a little upset that she was really just left in front of the tv and the computer for most of the time she was down there, she isn't sure she wants to go down for winter vacation and thinks she would rather stay home with us and that was she can see her friends too. But she also said she doesn't want to hurt her father's feelings. I told her that I will back her either way and if she wants I will tell him she doesn't have too. She still wants to see him just not stay there. I am glad she feels that she can talk to me about these things and is comfortable enough with me. I want her to know that there never are any consequences when she is expressing her feelings because she has a right to those feelings.

Otherwise things are fantastic at home we are all healthy and happy!

Proud of myself

2007-08-03T08:16:00.000-05:00

I drove to work today! I drove past the place where I was hit and I am ok, granted I white knuckled the steering wheel the whole was but I made it and I am ok.

I have to leave at 3 today to go and pick up my daughter from her father in Boston, I am not looking forward to the ride or seeing him he is being an idiot again. He has had her for a month and is giving me a hard time about bringing her back so now I have to drive down there and force him to hand her over or I will have to call the cops, I don't want to do that but I want my child back.

He comes and takes her maybe once every couple of months and thinks he is a model father so I told him he could take her for a month over the summer and see how it is when a child lives with them and he has to be responsible well I guess he doesn't. She is supposed to read 15 books this summer she has read 2 in the month she has been down there, she has told me she is watching a lot of tv and not really doing anything. I saw her last week she came to my cousin's birthday party and she has gained weight and is become sedentary. Now I am not saying that she needs to be on the run at all times but plopping your kid in front of the tv all day is not ok. I feel like he took his same commitment to parenting every two months to the time she has been down there, she is eating whatever she wants whenever, with no disipline or anything. Raising a child is not like raising a puppy, they need more than food and water and a walk. Kids need way more than that they need consistancy and rules, disipline as well as love, hell usually disipline that comes from love. They are to be guided not by cartoon network but by the adults in their lives we are there role models and if you are saying it is ok to sit on the couch and watch Cartoons while eating cheese dootles you are sending the wrond message. I am not saying it's not ok ever but it is not ok everyday.

As parents there is an ever increasing struggle to keep our children on a healthy path. When we were kids there was less sedentary activities. Nintendo was just coming out and MTV was a baby network and cartoons were something that were on channel 5 on sunday mornings. Now a days there's 4 cartoon channels 24/7, several different video game consoles, the computer, the internet, and MTV 1 and 2 vh1 and a lot of other facters. Parents have to be vigilant at this point children are growing up too fast, obiesity is on the rise. There is so much to protect your child from hell even at the end of the ner Harry Potter book the word Bitch appears and that's a childrens book.

I am just unhappy with his level of viligence when it comes to my child. I am concerned that she is being neglected not in the I am going to call DSS way but in the she is a tv potato all of a sudden, this child has always been active and a reader and I am disapointed in the way he choose to spend this summer. Yes they had good times they went camping twice and had fun but I wanted more that jsut material good times to come out of this I wanted both of them to get something out of this and all that happened was more of the same old.

Driving

2007-08-02T11:56:00.000-05:00

I was on my way to work today driving on the highway going 60 MPH not on the highway for 5 minutes when I was hit in the rear left. I pulled to the side and called the police. When he finally got there (20 minutes later) he takes my side down and then goes to talk to the other lady (idiot) who apparentley said that I swerved into her lane and hit the front of her car ummmm NO i was in the right lane and she was merging into mine except she merged into the back of my car!! He says well did you see her before she hit you ummm no I generally don't drive around looking backwards! He in the end decided to write both sides down and let our insurance fight it out.

Meanwhile I was hit going 60 MPH!! I am a little wait no A LOT freaked out by this I was shaking when I pulled over poor Jman had to come and follow me home which I cried practically the whole way I didn't go to work because I don't want to drive there I have to go tomorrow but I am terrified to drive.

Hopefully by chilling out today and getting a good night sleep will help.

How do you get past this stuff I suppose I will have to just suck it up

Grrrr....

2007-07-27T13:55:00.000-05:00

Today is just oneof those days! I was 15 minutes late for work and then I go to my car to go to lunch and the damn thing won't start Jman comes down and leaves me his figuring he will jump mine and go home and fix it so we run to the bank and because I don't have enough in my account to cover the check they won't cash it! Fine I will go after work because I am now going to be late coming back from lunch. Jman drops me off and calls me just as I am getting to my desk hmmm the CAR STARTED RIGHT UP FOR HIM!! he took it anyway so that he could look at it and now I have the truck which is a standard and there will be traffic on the way home, because that is just the way my day is going!

ran out of room

2007-07-24T08:52:00.001-05:00

Here are some more of the photo's

The kids had a great time little man danced the whole night long.

My dad's band got up and played for a while, everyone who stayed had so much fun.

Finally

2007-07-24T08:45:00.000-05:00

I finally got my pictures back and I thought I would share, I really had the best time I am dying to throw another big party of something.

What are You?

2007-07-23T13:58:00.000-05:00

You Are a Mermaid

You are a total daydreamer, and people tend to think you're flakier than you actually are.While your head is often in the clouds, you'll always come back to earth to help someone in need.Beyond being a caring person, you are also very intelligent and rational.You understand the connections of the universe better than almost anyone else.

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/whatmythologicalcreatureareyouquiz/">What Mythological Creature Are You?

Just amde me chuckle!!

2007-07-19T11:27:00.000-05:00

Jman went to pick up little man on Tuesday and I guess another kid approached him and asked a question

Kid "is that your dad?"

Little man " Yeah and if your thinking he's fat he's not so don't even say it I swear!"

Kid " OK" and walks away

When Jman told me I was howling laughing, what a classic line. That poor kid didn't have a chance!

Blessed ordinanriness

2007-07-16T16:47:00.000-05:00

I am reading this wonderful book called " The Monk Downstairs" and there is a line in it that just struck me while I was sitting in my back yard watching my husband mow the lawn. The main character describes reading to her daughter in bed at the end of the day as blessed ordinariness, I love this! I would say that my life these days is blessedly ordinary. I have come through so much strife and drama that just the day to day simple tasks are beautiful to me. Cooking dinner and doing laundry, watching Jman mowing the lawn, these are all tasks we hate but if that is the worst thing in my life then I am ok with that in fact I am ecstatic! For years my relationships and life in general have felt like an uphill battle and now I feel as if I am walking on solid flat land and if people think that being just ordinary is bad than they are looking for something they will never find or never be happy with. All that drama gets you no where passion is great and Jman and I have that in a quiet way not in the soap Oprah version and I think so many people model their lives after what they see on tv and forget that all of it is scripted life isn't scripted and there should be down time so if you like me are blessedly ordinary I say horay for you and embrace this it is simple and beautiful in a way that I never knew could happen to me.

Here's to having ordinary!

reflections

2007-07-13T13:21:00.000-05:00

I have been thinking lately about my road and how I landed where I am and the things that have happened along the way. This may sound odd but part of me is greatful for all of the tough times and hard descisions I have had to make because they have turned me into the person that I am today. I am truly and happy yet part of me feels guilty for this, because one of the worst things that has ever happened to me is also one of the largest factors in where I am and who I am. July 16th is the 11th anniversary of my mothers death, that event was truly devestating to me and still is she still haunts me on a daily basis. I know she is always with me and part of me. But there are times that I feel like an amputee that still has the phantom pains of a limb that no longer exist. Talking about her even in good ways still gives me pangs deep in my gut. But if she hadn't passed on I wouldn't be as strong as I am or where I am. I would have had the luxury of living with her of her protection and shoulder to lean on. Instead I was forced to fend for myself and make something of my situation so in a way I have to be grateful for my path and will to survive which I got from my mother. I hate having these conflicting feelings I truly only get this refelctive at this time of year because it still affects me I don't think there is another event in my life that has affected me in even a simular way. I have given birth twice and married the love of my life which in one way or another has had an effect on my journey but hasn't altered my to my core. My husband just enhances who I am and my children bring out instincts I already had. Losing my mother and living on my own at such a young age shaped me, changed me forever and I guess 11 years later I still have not closed that door or come to terms with the fact that I can never go home. I have made a home for my children but the home of my childhood is gone. Home is where the heart is and a piece of that is residing with my mother wherever she may be.

long time!!

2007-07-05T13:09:00.000-05:00

I have been so busy I am now a married woman and we moved into a bigger house on June 1st. The wedding was amazing it could not have been better; I keep joking with my husband that I am going to divorce him so that I can marry him again! After all that stress it was 100% worth it.

I am so lucky I was able to marry my best friend.

When in doubt

2007-03-26T15:55:00.000-05:00

get a puppy!!!

We are adopting a new baby on Wednesday. His name is Kaleb, we sort of fell into him we were at the pet store just looking and a guy who was buying something else say us and said that a friend of his had a dog and a bunny (I will get that pic up too) that his ex girlfriend bought she moved away and couldn't take them, and the guy was allergic so we called talked to the guy and went and got the bunny Saturday and we are getting the dog Wednesday he was being neutured today. So we went from 1 dog to 2 dogs and a bunny!! What a crazy house we have and love every second of it!!

Bad Blogger!!

2007-03-19T15:52:00.000-05:00

I have gone and done it again, I disapeared! I have been so consumed by this wedding and all things wedding related that I havn't been able to get on the computer. Things worked out for the most part with my Matron of Honor although I fear our friendship has a permenant shift in it. I just don't feel the same around her she will always be a friend but I think things have shifted for us and we may not be as close again. Everyone has thier dresses and they are being altered. All the pieces are in place and now I just have to wait until May 19th!!

Work is going well I am picking things up well now and they are starting to smoothe out. I was discussing this with Jman the other night because for so long now I just thought it was the state in which my job was that caused my discontent here but the longer I am here and the more cattyness I witness the less content I am. I am going to wait it out at least the year and see what I feel like.

Hope all is well in blogland.

Falling apart

2007-02-20T10:26:00.000-05:00

This are starting to go down hill REALLY fast with this wedding. Jman and his family had a huge riff and he has decided to not have them at the wedding and now I am feuding with my maid of honor and she has pulled out of my wedding. I am devistated and completley unsure of what to do.

I have dissapeared from here because it hurts so much to write think or talk about it. I will need to get it all out soon.

Details Details...

2007-02-05T12:42:00.000-05:00

The Dress

Well I bought it and it is gorgeous!! We went and got my daughters dress this weekend too it mathced my flower girls perfectly!! I am starting to get so excited too!

(the one on the right!)

We got print your own invitations and started printing them last night they came out very nice simple but very nice.

I will be doing envelopes tonight and stuffing maybe tomorrow!!

NOW I KNOW WHY YOU ONLY DO THIS ONCE!!!

I haven't disapeared...

2007-02-02T13:52:00.000-05:00

I have been planning a wedding!! We got engaged about 2 weeks ago and decided we don't want to wait so the date is may 19, 2007 and now I am knee deep in wedding planning.

I will be popping in and out and post a picture of my dress soon.

Hope every one is doing well

1979 (stolen from Sasssy!)

2007-01-22T13:09:00.000-05:00

In 1979 (the year you were born)

Jimmy Carter is president of the US

A major accident occurs at a nuclear reactor on Three Mile Island near Middletown, PA

An American Airlines DC-10 loses its engine and crashes seconds after takeoff, killing 275 people

Hurricane David kills over 1200 in the US and the Dominican Republic

Some 90 people, including 63 Americans, are taken hostage at the American Embassy in Tehran, Iran

The Soviet Union invades Afghanistan

ESPN starts broadcasting

Aaliyah, Jennifer Love Hewitt, Norah Jones, Heath Ledger, and Kate Hudson are born

Pittsburgh Pirates win the World Series

Pittsburgh Steelers win Superbowl XIII

Montreal Canadiens win the Stanley Cup

Kramer vs. Kramer is the top grossing film

Sophie's Choice by William Styron is published

"My Sharona" by The Knack spends the most time at the top of the US charts

The Facts of Life premiers

What Happened the Year You Were Born?

Rekindling

2007-01-15T11:40:00.000-05:00

I started doing a little reflection recently, a friend of mine has confided in me that she has found out her mother is having an affair on her father. I have known this family since I was 5 years old, her father coached our soft ball team when we where kids. They have 4 girls together ranging in age from 28 to 8. I thought they were the ones that would make it. I always envied my girl friend for having two loving parents under the same roof and to think 30 years later this happens. This is part of what terrifies me about relationships, I know I am lucky and Jman is incredible but what about 30 years from now? It just makes you think. I think some of it has to do with not really looking at the other person or staying connected. I think way too often we get caught up and forget that a marriage hell any relationship takes work and lots of it. So this weekend I decided I wasn't gonna care about all the other crap that normally fills my life and pay attention to every one in my house and guess what?

I had a really great weekend!! We really didn't so anything but Jman and I spent a lot of quality time together and put all the chores aside. It seems lately we have begun to consume our lives with all the things that have to get done and stuff we want to do that we have forgotten to sit quietly with each other and enjoy each other. Well this weekend we did that we lounged cuddled on the couch and watched movies, we downloaded songs together for my ipod. We did our food shopping just the two of us. We went to bed at the same time (and rekindled a little there he :) ) It was so nice to remember why we love each other, what attracts us to each other.

It's so nice to do that every once in a while just slow down. These days life happens so fast that sometimes it feels like it may run you over. Sometimes you seem to be in fast forward with out even realizing it, and when you do when something unexpected catches your eye it's almost scary because all this time has past and have you truly appreciated it? The time with your children, have you appreciated all the little things the art projects, the quirky things they say, or have you just done your job as a parent? My daughter is giving me a wakeup call lately, it's strange to look at her now and realize she is truly her own person and soon she will want little of my advice. She is changing everyday. My son may be a challenge most days but he is an amazing kid very loving and empathetic. These are the times I truly want ingrained in my memories. And if I don't slow down and take them in well will they be clear memories or just a foggy past?

I am trying to teach my self that the work deadline will still be there tomorrow but my family can change in a day.

Cool Calm and Collected

2007-01-13T11:25:00.000-05:00

You Are As Cool As They Come

Rational and relaxed, no one could accuse you of being dramatic.
You roll with the punches, and nothing ever gets you too worked up.
You are able to maintain perspective and see the big picture.

And even if you're emotional inside, you don't let it show.
You're great at keeping it together, and you're rewarded for that.
People see you as an ideal friend, employee, and partner.

Are You a Drama Queen (or King)?

Summer Anthem

2007-01-12T19:21:00.000-05:00

Your 2006 Summer Anthem Is

Dani California by the Red Hot Chili Peppers

"She's a lover, baby, and a fighter
Shoulda seen it comin' when it got a little brighter
With a name like "Dani California"
Day was gonna come when I was gonna mourn ya
A little loaded she was stealin' another breath
I love my baby to death"

What's Your 2006 Summer Anthem?

AAAHHHHHH!!

2007-01-12T14:04:00.000-05:00

I am mentally exhausted today. I am just so glad that this week is OVER! As most of you know I am in payroll and benefits. Well we had open enrollment over the last month and wow what a wirlwind that was. We also payout vacation and 1/2 of this sick at the end of the year and that had to be done for last pay period. Oh and W2's came in and needed to be checked and distributed. I am drained and my brain can not hold any more this week, I think it went on strike last night.

I am trying to prepare for next week we have annual reviews and rate changes to be done and retroed back to the first of the year.

On other news I got a new couch yesterday and I am sooo excited I love the color and it is so comfortable plus it has 2 recliners whoooo hoooo!! My old couch is 10 years old and very broken.

Exhale

2007-01-08T17:01:00.000-05:00

It was deffinatley a long Holiday season this year but we are now returning to our routines. We made it through, the kids are back to school and we are both back to work. J'man hasn't been able to see his kids since before Christmas and it really bothered him in the beginning but I think he is getting used to it (which is sad on it's own)

Work is good but I work right next to a girl who is beginning to get on my nerves!! She is a little too upity, which would be ok if I didn't get the feeling like half the time she wasn't looking down her nose at me.

Other wise I really haven't got a thing to complaine about, we had an really nice holiday with my family and I got a diamond necklace (who wouldn't like that)

I realized how lucky I am having Jman in my life he is so attentive and sweet, I definatley lucked out.

I hope you all are doing well and had really lovely holidays as well

oh man

2006-12-12T18:39:00.001-05:00

I have a ton going on right now and this is probably going to seem like random babbling but I have to get this crap out of my head or it will explode.

Baby Mama Drama,

Jman's son is driving us up a wall. He has been caught steeling from us as well as his own grandmother. On top of mouthing back to me and his father. We have decided that he can not spend the night at the house because of the stealing. Because of this decision his mother has decided to start fights with Jman as well as attemping to put this whole thing on me. She says that Jman's son doesn't even like me and that I must have done something to make him not like me and the reason Jman isn't letting him sleep over is me. Last night she was screaming at him saying she knows her son doesn't steal after two weeks ago she had Jman go and "dicipline" him because he stole diabetic needles from his grandmother. We have discovered that he stole 60 dollars from me and a cell phone from his father. The tension is getting to me and Jman as well we are getting snippy when it is in the forfront of our minds. For the most part we are being good about keeping comunication open and getting through this well it's just hard and right around the holidays.

The New Job-

is going really well I love the company and so far everything is going really smoothe.

The Kids-

My daughter is doing really well she had a stellar report card and is making great friends.

My son is stugling a little with school and needs to go back to the doctors because he is having trouble sleeping otherwise he seems to be doing well.

I hope you all are doing well in this holiday season!!

oh man

2006-12-12T18:39:00.000-05:00

ooooh my!!

2006-12-09T11:43:00.000-05:00

I guess it's been a little while!! I have busy with the new job and Christmas coming. I have much more going on and I want to put my thoughts in the right place before I make a full post but I will give you a teaser we have baby mama drama, little theifs and crazy kids!!

Hope everyone is doing well!

Busy Busy Bee

2006-11-25T12:25:00.001-05:00

I have been so busy with my new job that I feel like I haven't had time to think! I really like the place and it seems to be a great company to work for. So I am excited just very tired. Hope every one had a great thanksgiving!

Busy Busy Bee

2006-11-25T12:25:00.000-05:00

All About Me!

2006-11-09T12:14:00.000-05:00

I borrowed this from Mad Hatter,

1. Start Time: 9:59 am
2. Name: Betty
3 Astrology sign: Aquarius
4. Gender: Female
5. Hair color: dark auburn but naturally really really blonde
6. Eye color: green
7. Your mood: excited
8. Favorite color(s): Red, hot pink, blue
9. Glasses : No, but i think soon
10. Tattoos: yes three!
11. Best part of your life: my home life but it's all good at this point
12. Hometown: somerville but living in manvegas now
13. Single or taken: happily living in domestic bliss :)
14..Sibling's name: to little brothers

HAVE YOU EVER .....
15. Cut your own hair? my bangs
16. Did you do something in the past month that you regret? i try and not regret anything if i didn't live my life the way i have I wouldn't be where I am today
17. Fell in love at first sight? lust yes long lasting love take time to develope
18. Skipped school? yes
19. Smoked?: yes
20. Bungee jumped?: no way I am terrified of heights
21. Had any kids?: yes two
22. Punched someone? yes twice both in 8th grade and I got in a lot of trouble for one I knocked her braces loose
23. Cheated on a test? probably
24. Been arrested? No, but that just means I have never been caught ;-)
25. Broken into someone's house? my own
26. Been fired? no
27. Been acussed of something that was not your fault? of course i have even been blamed for stuff I didn't even know happened
28. Been rejected? yes :(
29. Been to a funeral? too many
30. Used a lighter? Yep
31. Been on stage? yes I have I am always a star!

FAVORITE ......
32. Season: summa!
33. Food: anything yummy
34. Ice cream flavor: chocolate fudge brownie
35. Fruit: apples and bananas
36. Candy/chocolate: hershey's kisses
37. Breakfast: french toast
38. Person: ro and zay and jman
39. Book: anything by Wally Lamb.
40. Weather: Sunny, but not boiling hot
41. Song: i am loving that song by the scissor sisters but anything I can dance to
43 State/City: somerville ma!
44. Place: cuddling under the blankets with Jman
45. Sport to watch on TV : got to love my pats!
46. Spot to be kissed: my kneck
47. Computer site: Bloggersville
48. Movie: Beaches and Dirty Dancing
49. Disney movie: Sleeping Beauty (loved it so much named a kid after one of the characters)
50. Disney princess: hehehe see above
51. Place(s) to eat out: margaritas
52. Name(s) for a son: zay
53. Name(s) for a daughter: ro and sally if I ever have another girl after my mom
DO YOU PREFER .......
54. Chocolate or vanilla ice-cream? put the both together and mix!!
55. Alcoholic or non? today I am all for the alcohalic version!
56. Long relationships or one-night stands? LIFETIME relationships
57. Dogs or cats? doggies got to stick by my pup ;-)
58. Scary movies or comedies? comedies I get freaked out by scary movies
59. TV or the computer? mostly TV when I am home I sit on a computer all day
60. Croutons or bacon bits? bacon bits but only the hormel ones
61. Books or magazines? books

FIRST THINGS THAT COME TO MIND.......
62. Mexicans: margaritas
63. School: uniforms
64. Car: convertable (fire engine red)
65. Cows: my fav animal
66. Canadians: up north
67. Mouse: mickey
68. Hand: ring

THE PAST 3 DAYS, HAVE YOU........
69. Talked on the phone? yes Jman and I talk all the time and my daughter calls as soon as she gets home from school
70. Watched a movie? Sunday x3 (see MH you are not alone)
71. Cried? nope
72. Smoked? yes
73. Drank a glass of water? yes but I am not a big water fan I put crystal light in it
74. Used drugs? not anything beside migrain pills
75. Read a book or magazine? No
76. Watched TV? Yep
77. Looked in the mirror? yes everyday I put on my makeup
78. Taken a shower? everyday
79. Taken a picture? yes I stuck a tampon up Jmans nose last night! (it opened up in my purse and I was cleaning the purse sitting next to him on the couch)
80. Listened to music? all day
81.Told someone you love them? yes my kids and Jman
82.Time: 10:32 am (i did stuff and came back to this)

Written in the Stars?

2006-11-09T09:21:00.000-05:00

Quickie:
An emotional outburst may strike within or near your family today.

Overview:
This current energy makes you results-oriented and gives you fantastic taste. You also understand the sanctity of hearth, home and partnership more than you have before. Grab a loved one and refurbish your nest

This is my horoscope for today. Last night Jman's son was over for dinner. I went to the grocery store and grabbed the makings for Jman's birthday dinner and an ice cream cake (because that's the best kind). I come in and start cooking right away make my signature baked Mac and Cheese. We are having a nice evening the kids are loud and rambunctious they are kids whatever. I serve dinner and Jman's son eats two bites and says he doesn't feel good. OK fine, but then Jman says to give him some of the birthday cake. The rule in my house is 5 bites (my son is the pickiest eater on the planet and when he says he is done and has barely eaten he has to eat 5 bites more or he doesn't get desert) I say to Jman he didn't eat and Jman starts the guilty father shit "I only get him once a week" ok so because you don't see him more often he doesn't have to follow the rules? Or he is to have a different set of rules than my children? And what are these second set of rules so that at least I know them? GRRRRR!! I am just so fustrated with this stuff. I thought we were on the same page.

OK so the quickie horoscope is probably going to happen tonight when I sit his ass down about being on the same page because if this two sets rules thing is only going to make it harder for me to become close to these children because if they can push they will and by giving him special treatment you are allowing him to push!

I guess in the long run if I do sit Jman down and tell him how I feel maybe it will be results oriented at least I hope it will!

In other news tomorrow is my last day at my job, I think it's going to be strange not coming here monday through friday. I have been doing it for over two years. I am a little nervous about the new place hoping I like it and all.

Keepin my fingers crossed on all fronts.

Grrrr!

2006-11-06T08:58:00.000-05:00

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Pumpkin story (this made me laugh!)

2006-11-01T14:43:00.000-05:00

Police arrested Patrick Lawrence, a 22-year-old white male, resident of Dacula, GA, in a pumpkin patch at 11:38 p.m. Friday. Lawrence will be charged with lewd and lascivious behavior, public indecency, and public intoxication at the Gwinnett County courthouse on Monday.

The suspect allegedly stated that as he was passing a pumpkin patch, he decided to stop. "You know, a pumpkin is soft and squishy inside, and there was no one around here for miles. At least I thought there wasn't," he stated in a phone interview from the jail.

When he was caught red-handed (or in this case orange-handed) his reply was fantasic:

[The officer] went on to describe what happened when she approached Lawrence. "I just went up and said, 'Excuse me sir, but do you realize that you are screwing a pumpkin?' He got real surprised, as you'd expect, and then looked me straight in the face and said, "A pumpkin? Damn…is it midnight already?"

Oh man, good stuff.

The New Hair

2006-11-01T09:31:00.000-05:00

I almost forgot to show you guys my new hair color!! I am a brunette

Ever feel ...

2006-11-01T09:24:00.000-05:00

Like you just don't have enough time?

This is how I felt last weekend. It just seemed that at the end of the weekend I needed another weekend. Jman and I had spent almost no time together and we ran around like chickens with out head cut off.

Saturday and Sunday my daughter was in her first pageant. She liked it I didn't! Just too much fake but she looked beautiful and really loved getting dressed up. I was proud she got up on stage and said her little speach (which takes guts!) so here are a few pics of that

Saturday night we watched Monster House which was really funny and cute the kids loved it!

Here's Ro and Jman's baby

And Sunday night after dropping off the baby we all headed down for dinner with my family and cake for little man's birthday!

oy vey!! I am hoping this weekend is much more quiet!!

Happy hump day every one!

Halloween

2006-11-01T09:17:00.000-05:00

We went trick or treating in a neighboring town last night and had a great time. This town is known in the area for going all out and they exceeded my expectations last night. The houses up and down the main street must plan for this all year there were multiple homes turned into haunted houses and the amount of kids out was crazy. The people handing out candy were all dressed up, some were vampires other were just goulish looking my favorite was the dead bride and groom. The kids hada blast and I took a ton of pictures and wanted to share them with you. But when I got home most of the pictures just didn't come out. I do however have a few for you!

The Kiddies getting ready to go

My little girl always ready for her closeup

Zay is always ready for you!

So there you have Halloween at the Betty house.

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

2006-10-31T09:33:00.000-05:00

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

XOXO

passing the time

2006-10-27T10:54:00.000-05:00

Part 1: The Birth of You

Were you a planned baby?:
i think so

Were you the first?:
yup

Who was present at your birth?:
My parents I would think a doctor or two and anesthysiologist couple nurses!

Were your parents married when you were born?:
yes

What is your birthdate?
Feb 18

Part 2: The Family

Are you parents married or divorced?
divorced

An only child?:
for my mom yes
for my dad I have two little bro's

If you have siblings are you oldest, middle, or youngest?:
Oldest

What are your sibling's names?:
Sean and Riley (no we aren't irish!)

Which parent do you get along with best?:
my mom and I were best friends

What do you fight about?
my dad doesn't see me as an adult still

Do you have step parents?:
yes

Part 3: The Friends

Do you have more than one best friend?
yes one from adulthood and one from my childhood and then there's always Jman

What do you like to do when you are together?
depends who i'm with

Do you share the same interests?:
absolutley and the same sense of humor

Which friend can you tell anything to?:
Sher

Part 4: Your Personality

How high/low is your self esteem?:
high I think I am a confident person

Do you get depressed about things easily?:
not really but I hold stress in and that's no good I end up with medical issues when I do that

Are you an extrovert (outgoing) or an introvert (reserved)?:
I am definatly outgoing

Are you happy?:
almost always

Do you live life to the fullest?:
I think so I am not jumping off buildings for kicks but I enjoy my life

Part 5: Appearance

Are you comfortable with the way you look?
yup

Describe your hair?
right now it's brown and in a ponytail I either let it dry curly (and it becomes afroish) or straighten it but that takes forever!

How do you dress?
depends on what the occasion is I love clothes and accessories so could be anything

Part 6: The Past

Were you a strange child?:
i don't think so but I was always funny

What did you used to love that you no longer do?
riding my bike

Do you have the same friends?:
some

Was there anything in your past that was traumatizing?
not really, I have grown from situations

Part 7: The Future

What is your ambition?:
to buy a house

Are you scared of growing old?:
sometimes I am more scared of my children growing up

Part 8: The Outdoors

Do you prefer indoors or outdoors?:
in the summer outdoors in the winter give me a blanket and the couch

Favorite Season:
summer

Do you like walking in the rain?:
when it's warm out

Part 9: Food

Are you a vegetarian?:
nope

What is your favorite food?:
comfort foods (baked mac n cheese, meatloaf and mashed tatters)

What food makes you want to gag?
salsbury steak

What is your favorite dessert?
cheese cake

What is your favorite restaurant?:
hmmm all depends

Are you a fussy eater?
not at all

Part 10: Relationships and Love

Are you single or taken?:
taken

Do you think love is the best feeling in the world?:
yes

Do you believe in love at first sight?:
that's up for debate I think you have to build off something like that

Part 11: Experiences

What was one of your greatest experiences:
graduating High school after my family thought I wouldn't

What was one of the worst?
losing my mother

Have you ever done drugs?
yup

Have you ever thought you were going to die?:
nope

New Shoes

2006-10-27T07:02:00.000-05:00

These were delivered last night. I was so excited when the UPS man came a knockin on my door. There is nothing better when you get stuff in the mail.

We are headed out to dinner tonight with another couple and I am just excited to be wearing my new shoes.

Happy Friday!

Kid tidbit of the day

2006-10-26T13:17:00.000-05:00

I punished my son from watching tv because he was up in the middle of the night earlier this week eating his birthday cake and watching TV

So yesturday morning Jman cought him in the living room watching TV before anyone got up

Jman: what are you doing your mom said no TV

Zay: Mom said no watching my TV this is the living room TV

OY VAE!! some days he is too smart for all of us!

This is for Syd!

2006-10-26T11:59:00.000-05:00

Lust of Bust on Transbuddha

Poetry ... well kinda!

2006-10-26T11:15:00.000-05:00

WOMEN'S POEM

Before I lay me down to sleep,
I pray for a man, who's not a creep,
One who's handsome, smart and strong.
One who loves to listen long,
One who thinks before he speaks,
One who'll call, not wait for weeks
I pray he's gainfully employed,
When I spend his cash, won't be annoyed.
Pulls out my chair and opens my door,
Massages my back and begs to do more.
Oh! Send me a man who'll make love to my mind,
Knows what to answer to "how big is my behind?"
I pray that this man will love me to no end,
And always be my very best friend.

MAN'S POEM

I pray for a deaf-mute nymphomaniac with huge boobs who
owns a liquor store and a golf course. This doesn't rhyme and I
don't give a shit.

Trying to Pass the Time ~ hmmm do you think I can keep this up for two weeks?

2006-10-26T11:05:00.000-05:00

1. What is the middle name of the last person you slept with?
~Winston

2. What kind of underwear are you wearing and what color?
~Nada! (huh Maddie what about you? haha)

3. What is the song you want played at your funeral?
~I am not sure

13. How many drinks does it take to get you drunk?
~it all depends on the mood amount of food and what I am drinking

14. Where is your best friend?
~working

15. Hair color you like on someone you're dating?
~Dark

16. Would you rather be blind or deaf?
~I would rather not pick I think it would be asking for trouble

17. Do you have any special talents?
~I do but not too many I can share JUST KIDDING

18. Did you brush your teeth this morning?
~Of course!

19. Ever call for a booty call?
~guilty

21. First movie you can remember seeing as a kid?
~Sleeping Beauty at home but the first movie I went to see in the theaters was Satr Wars and Jaba the Hut was on screen I ran out of there screaming!

22. What do you do as soon as you walk in the house?
~go the bathroom and let the dog out

23. Do you like horror or comedy?
~Comedy

24. Do you like to watch movies by yourself?
~depends

25. Guilty pleasure movie you will always watch if it's on?
~Dirty Dancing

26. Person you most wish you hadn't been with?
~Christopher

27. If you weren't straight, what person of the same sex would ou do?
~ummm I am not sure there are a couple hot celebrities but real people none at the moment

28. Where do you want to live when you are old?
~Somewhere I am happy

29. Who is the person you can count on most?
~Jman

30. If you could date any celebrity past or present,who would it be?
~Jake Gyllenhal but I used to have the BIGGEST crush on Christian Slater

31. Favorite drinking game?
~Quarters

Holloween is Coming

2006-10-26T07:09:00.000-05:00

You scored as Jigsaw. You are Jigsaw. You dont enjoy killing people at all. You instead love to see how far people will go to live. However if it ends in a bloody death, you still sleep with a smile on your face.
You are intelligent, and know how to outwit just about anyone. And that spells bad news for anyone who falls into your games of death and torture.

Jigsaw

85%

Hannibal Lecter

60%

Buffalo Bill

60%

Pinhead

55%

Freddy Krueger

50%

Leatherface

45%

Captain Spaulding

45%

Candyman

40%

Michael Myers

30%

Jason Voorhees

10%

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I love the concept of scary movies and have tried several times but I usually can't watch them by myself or with the lights off and this guy scares the crap out of me!

Brain Break!

2006-10-25T14:23:00.000-05:00

1. YOU HAVE 10 BUCKS AND NEED TO BUY SNACKS AT A GAS STATION. WHAT DO YOU GET?
Funny Bones a Diet Pepsi and maybe some of those mini muffins!

02. IF YOU WERE REINCARNATED AS SOME SORT OF SEA DWELLING CREATURE, WHAT WOULD YOU BE?
Whale

03. WHO'S YOUR FAVORITE REDHEAD?
Sher

04. WHAT DO YOU ORDER WHEN YOU'RE AT AN IHOP?
pancakes bacon sausage homefries

05. LAST BOOK YOU READ?
mike mike and me it was ok, I don't read that much this time of year but come summer I devour the books

06. LAST TIME YOU GOT GAS?
Monday I filled the tank at 2.07 a gallon!

07. DESCRIBE YOUR FAVOURITE PAIR OF UNDERWEAR?
I have a pair I call my lucky underwear everytime I wear them something good happens but I don't wear them often I don't want them to loose there mojo

08. DESCRIBE THE LAST TIME YOU WERE INJURED?
When I tore my ACL in march

09. OF ALL YOUR FRIENDS, WITH WHOM WOULD YOU WANT TO BE STUCK IN A WELL?
hmmm prolly sher her and I have a blast no matter where we are

10. ROCK CONCERT, OR SYMPHONY?
Rock concert

11. WHAT IS THE WALLPAPER ON YOUR CELLPHONE?
My puppy

12. SODA
Diet Pepsi

13. FLAVOR OF PUDDING?
I like to mix chocolate and vanilla

14. WHAT TYPE OF SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
I have a white tank and a pink wrap sweater on

15. PRESCRIPTION MEDICATION?
Nothing right now but I am headed to the docs on friday to see about these headaches and migraines

16. IF YOU COULD USE ONLY ONE FORM OF TRANSPORTATION FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
how about a private plane?

17. HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN BLOGGING?
about 8 months I started just as a way to get my thoughts out of my head

18. HOW MANY OTHER BLOGGERS HAVE YOU MET?
none

19. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
third eye blind

20. MOST RECENT MOVIE YOU'VE WATCHED IN A THEATERS?
over the hedge at the drive in during the summer

21. IF YOU COULD INVENT ONE THING, WHAT WOULD IT BE? I would love to invent a rosie I hate housework!

22. NAME AN ACTOR/ACTRESS YOU'VE HAD THE HOTS FOR?
Jake Gyllenhal

23. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE CITY?
Boston

24. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE KIND OF CAKE?
Cheese cake!

25. WHAT'S THE FIRST WORD THAT COMES TO MIND RIGHT NOW?
sleep

26. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM IN PERSON?
10 and a half years ago (wow it's a lot when you put it out there it doesn't feel like it was that long ago)

27. DO YOU READ OTHER PEOPLES BLOGS DAILY?
hehe yea I have some that I check first thing

28. WHAT DID YOU HAVE FOR DINNER LAST NIGHT?
chicken pasta crock pot stuff (it was gross)

29. HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN RESIDING IN THE CURRENT CITY YOU LIVE IN?
almost 3 months

30. DO YOUR FRIENDS AND FAMILY KNOW ABOUT YOUR BLOG?
some know I have one but don't read

31. WHAT'S THE LAST THING YOU SAID OUTLOUD?
are the envelopes ready?

Why oh WHY!!

2006-10-25T09:45:00.000-05:00

My boss isn't in and I want to give my notice!! Grrrrr I had the nerve up this morning and everything and now the chic isn't showing up! Lord help me if I suffer a coronary I will blog about it later!

Update: I gave my notice and I will have to train my boss to do parts of my job she doesn't know how to do and chances are I will not be retained for the two weeks notice. I do payroll and because of the confidentiality it is company policy to let the person forgo the notice.

I was nervous because I have been here a long time and this place has given me a great deal of training and opurtunity I was affraid of my bosses reaction everything is kosher now though!!

Top ten Halloween Costumes

2006-10-24T10:22:00.000-05:00

The hottest Halloween costumes for men, women, boys and girls this year are:

1. Star Wars (Anakin and Amidala)

2. Scooby-Doo (Scooby, Shaggy, and the gang)

3. Spider-Man

4. Lilo and all the Disney princesses

5. Bob the Builder

6. Austin Powers (especially Foxxy Cleopatra from "Austin Powers in Goldmember")

7. SpongeBob SquarePants

8. Harry Potter

9. Superman

10. Classic monsters with Goth touches (Frankenstein, vampires and witches)

I got a witch and a ninja this year at home!

Goth Name

2006-10-24T10:17:00.000-05:00

http://www.necroticobsession.com/gothname.html

I got cruel intentions!! haha sorry made me laugh!

I'm doing it like the Jefferson's

2006-10-24T07:54:00.000-05:00

Movin on up!!

I got word last night that I have the job!! I went on an interview last week for a position up in Nashua and I recieved the call last night from my head hunter with an offer. I have accepted the offer and I am awaiting the written confirmation before giving my two weeks notice.

I am beyond excited the company looks like a great company to work for. They have excellent health benefits. It is only about a 30 minute ride where right now I am driving in traffic for about an hour and a half. This is the main reason for wanting to leave. I moved to NH about 3 months ago and have been looking and commuting since.

so today my word is WOOO HOOO!!

But I am nervous about giving my notice, I have a love hate thing with my boss if she is in a good mood she is awesome if not well then the only advice I have is HIDE!!

my layers

2006-10-23T14:36:00.000-05:00

LAYER ONE: ON THE OUTSIDE.
Birth date: 02/18/79
Current status: over the deep end
Eye colour: green
Hair colour: Brown
Righty or Lefty: lefty.
Zodiac Sign: aquarius / pisces

Layer Two: On The Inside
your fears: spiders and heights
Your weaknesses: my kids and jmans smell
Your perfect pizza: buffalo chic

LAYER THREE: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW.
Your thoughts first waking up: 5 more minutes
Your bedtime: between 9 and 11 depending on the mood
Your most missed memory: my mom she was so free

LAYER FOUR: YOUR PICK.
Pepsi or Coke: Diet Pepsi
McDonald's or Burger King: McD's
Single or group dates: Both
Adidas or Nike: Adidas
Lipton tea or Nestea: Lipton tea
Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate.
Cappuccino or coffee: Coffee

LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?
Smoke: Yes
Curse: Fuck Yes.
Take a shower: everyday.
Have a crush: no I have love
Think you've been in love: Yep
School: No
Want to get married: yes
Believe in yourself: most times.
Think you're a health-freak: not at all

LAYER SIX: IN THE PAST MONTH.
Drank alcohol: Yes.
Gone to the mall: Yes.
Been on stage: yep
Eaten sushi: love it
Dyed your hair: Yes

LAYER SEVEN: HAVE YOU EVER?
Played a stripping game: Yes
Changed who you were to fit in: actually I don't think so I am and have always been me, I think I get this from mom she made it ok to be yourself

LAYER EIGHT: AGE YOU'RE HOPING TO.
Get married: next few years
Retire: as soon as possible!!

LAYER NINE: IN A GIRL/GUY.
Best eye colour: Brown.
Best hair colour: Brown.
Short or long hair: Short

LAYER TEN: WHAT WERE YOU DOING.
1 minute ago: inputting hours
1 hour ago: payroll tally
4.5 hours ago: uploading payroll
1 month ago: who knows
1 year ago: just starting this position

LAYER ELEVEN: FINISH THE SENTENCE.
I love: the way I feel these days
I feel: calm
I hate: no one
I miss: my mother at the strangest times ;)
I need: some extra sleep

Meme!

2006-10-19T20:28:00.000-05:00

This came from Zanne and now it's floating around

1. Dated outside your race? Yep, and I have a halfy son who will be 7 tomorrow
2. Singing in the shower? no but I kick it hard core in the car :P
3. Spit in someone’s drink?no
4. Played with Barbies? no I was more of a cabbage patch type
5. Made someone cry? unfortunatley
6. Opened your Christmas presents early? No my mom was a good hider!
7. Lied to a friend? Yes, unfortunately
8. Watched and cried while watching a soap opera?Nope!
9. Played a computer game for more than 5 hours? no way but browsed blogger for that long
10. Ran through the sprinklers naked? hmmmm no but made naked snow angels!
11. Ate food that fell on the floor? yep!
12. Went outside naked? Yes (see answer to # 10)
13. Been on stage? yep
14. Been on stage naked or close to it? does a cheering uniform come close enough
15. Been in a parade? yep
16. Been in a school play? no
17. Drank beer? hell yea and now I want one
18. Gotten detention? Duh
19. Been on a cruise? No and I would love to Jman has a fear of boats
20. Broken into a house? my own
21. Gotten a tattoo? I have three!! A rose on my chest and a cow jumping over the moon in the middle of my back and my favorite is an angel with my mom's name under it and our numbers
22. Gotten piercings? I have had at one time or other my eyebrow, nose, the madonna peicing, the lower lip and both of my nipples and I still have my tongue belly button and ears
23. Gotten into a fist fight? 8th grade I punched a chic for calling me stuffy (let's just says I was "advanced")
24. Gotten into a shouting match? ummm yea my highschool boyfriend and I were famous for this
25. Swallowed sea/pool water? Yep
26. Spun yourself in circles to get dizzy on purpose? still do
27. Laughed so hard it hurt? Oh yes
28. Tripped on your own feet? I'm a natural blonde duh!!
29. Cried yourself to sleep? yes
30. Cried in public? Yep
31. Thrown up in public? no
32. Lied to your parents? Some times I still do my dad still treats me like a little girl
33. Skipped class? yeppers
34. Cried so hard you threw up? no
35. Had a one night stand? yes
36. Left restaurant without paying tab? yes in 9th grade bickfords
37. Been Fired from a job?nope
38. Wanted to make out with your massage therapist, therapist OR hairldresser? no
39. Had a drink "sent" to a stranger at a bar? I never sent on but I have brought one to the stranger hehe ;)
40. Been winked at and loved it? YES

Ricco .......................Suave'

2006-10-18T13:21:00.000-05:00

The Suave Lover
36% partner focus, 57% aggressiveness, 50% adventurousness

Based on the results of this test, it is highly likely that:

You prefer your romance and love to be traditional rather than daring or out-of-the-ordinary, you would rather pursue than be pursued and, when it comes to physical love, you concentrate more on enjoying the experience rather than worrying about your performance.

This places you in the Lover Style of: The Suave Lover.

The Suave Lover is a wonderful Lover Style, and is reminiscent of some of the most classic lover figures of all time, such as Casanova or Don Juan, or more recently James Bond (several of the "Bond girls" fit this type, too). This shouldn't be confused with a "player" or someone who is solely interested in physical love, but someone who is looking for an incredibly elusive thing: a worthy partner. The Suave Lover is a treasure to find, but can be incredibly difficult to hold on to, once found.

In terms of physical love, the Suave Lover can sometimes be surprisingly tender. Given the right setting, and the right lover, the Suave Lover can be a delight in bed.

Best Compatibility can probably be found with: The Devoted Lover (most of all) or the Romantic Lover, or the Liberated Lover.

Congratulations!

If you enjoyed this test, I would love the feedback! Also, you might want to check out some of my other tests if you're interested in the following:

Nerds, Geeks & Dorks

Professional Wrestling

Buffy the Vampire Slayer

America/Politics

Thanks Again! -- THE LOVER STYLE PROFILE TEST

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 3% on partner focus

You scored higher than 61% on aggressiveness

You scored higher than 37% on adventurousness

Link: The Lover Style Profile Test written by donathos on OkCupid, home of the The Dating Persona Test

I'm a Peach!!

2006-10-18T13:03:00.000-05:00

The Peach
Random Gentle Love Master (RGLMf)

Playful, kind, and well-loved, you are The Peach.

For such a warm-hearted, generous person, you're surprisingly experienced in both love and sex. We credit your spontaneous side; you tend to live in the moment, and you don't get bogged down by inhibitions like most women your age. If you see something wonderful, you confidently embrace it.

Your exact opposite:
The Nymph

Deliberate Brutal Sex Dreamer

You are a fun flirt and an instant sweetheart, but our guess is you're becoming more selective about long-term love. It's getting tougher for you to become permanently attached; and a guy who's in a different place emotionally might misunderstand your early enthusiasm. You can wreck someone simply by enjoying him.

Your ideal mate is adventurous and giving, like you. But not overly intense.

DREAD: The False Messiah

CONSIDER: The Loverboy, The Playboy, or The Boy Next Door

Link: The 32-Type Dating Test by OkCupid - Free Online Dating.
My profile name: Betty79

Hump day facts!

2006-10-18T11:57:00.000-05:00

* In Ancient Greece, women would expose their genitals to ward of storms at sea.

* Mink's are the most highly sexed animals, intercourse lasts an average of eight hours and they ejaculate up to 260,000 sperm cells at a time.

* Casanova boasted that he made love to the same woman twelve times in one day.

* A man' penis can stay constantly erect , by applying camel's milk and honey, according to the "Kama Sutra".

* Most turkeys and giraffes are bisexual.

* An adult gorilla's penis is only two inches long.

* The chimpanzee holds the record for the quickest sexual intercourse session at an average of three seconds.

* Creative Cleopatra invented her own diaphragm from camel dung.

* The word "Pornography" comes from the Greek meaning "the writings of prostitutes".

* The penis of a dragonfly is shaped like a shovel and has the ability to scoop out a male rivals semen.

* .In ancient Greece and Rome, dildos were made out of animal horns, gold, silver ivory and glass.

* Sex education was first introduced into English schools in 1889.

* The Marquis de Sade was imprisoned by the request of his mother-in-law for "sex crimes".

* Both humans and fish share a common sexual practice - Fellatio, or Oral Sex.

* Both humans and porpoises have one social sex practice in common - group sex.

* Honking of car horns for a couple that just got married is an old superstition to insure great sex.

* Cleopatra inserted stones into her vagina to prevent her from getting pregnant.

* Dr. Kellogg introduced Kellogg's Corn Flakes in hopes that it would reduce masturbation.

* The sperm of a mouse is actually longer than the sperm of an elephant.

* Unfaithful wives were made to chase a chicken through town, naked in medieval France.

* The Black Widow spider eats her mate during or after sex.

* In Sambia, New Guinea males must perform ritualized homosexual acts until they reach adulthood.

* The Rhinoceros has a penis no less than two feet long.

* Napoleon's penis was sold to an American Urologist for $40,000

* The penguin only has one single orgasm in a year.

* Eating the heart of a male Partridge was the cure for impotence in ancient Babylon.

* A bull can inseminate 300 cows from one single ejaculation.

* When a Hawaiian woman wears a flower over her left ear, it means that she is not available

Only 112!! and this is for my full name!

2006-10-18T08:21:00.000-05:00

HowManyOfMe.com

There are:
112
people with my name
in the U.S.A.

How many have your name?

No more whine, training bras, and 7 years

2006-10-17T12:40:00.000-05:00

I haven't posted in a few days because I am trying not to whine or bitch about Jman's children. They are just so trying. There is a S load of anger there and I hate dealing with it. I hate bearing the brunt of it as well, and I know he is 8 and I don't fight or give in I ignore his tantrums and snide remarks but MAN DO I WANT TO GRAB HIM BY HIS SCRAWNY LITTLE KNECK AND ASK HIM WHO THE F HE THINKS HE IS!!

ok better!!

At this end of this weekend I was exhausted but there were still the daily things that needed to get done.

My lovley daughter has science project do this week and we had to head to wally world to pick up supplies for the model. While there we spent other money (what else is new) and I (watch out this one is SCARY) bought my daughter her first bra!! I was talking to her earlier in the week and noticed she was blossoming and you could tell through her shirt. I knew it was time to get her something but man when you are standing in the aisle and your only daughter is picking out her first bras and discussing this with you it make you want to cry!! I can't believe we are here already, when did we get here and how can I get back there.

In other news my BABY BOY is going to be 7 this friday, it just amazes me that 7 years ago this boy wasn't even out yet and now he is a running jumping noisey boy.

How time flies!

Have a fantastic Friday the 13th!!

2006-10-13T10:29:00.000-05:00

My message to you!

I took this from Sassyfemme! and I love this!!

Aint that the truth!!

2006-10-10T08:58:00.000-05:00

Love is a grave mentalillness.

Plato

When love calls to you, you follow.
The terrain is rough, yet you try to keep up.
When love embraces you, you soften.
Though at times the grip is crushing.
When love speaks, you listen.
Even when what is said destroys your spirit.
For as love builds you up; so it breaks you down.
It makes you stronger than the ancient redwood, yet weaker than a sapling.
Love, itÃ’s a motherfucker.

this was on Trista's blog and it got me to thinking about my current situations and the people I love and the circumstances. Then about the people I know and there love situations. It always amazes me the lengths we will go for love and tdifferentant ways we love.

My kids come to mind first. They way you fall in love with your child has always amazed me because you can't quite grasp it until you are a parent. The first time you lay eyes on your child in an instant you know that you would sacrificeice your world for thchild'slds happiness. I remember the first time each of my children were placed in my arms and the feeling that came over me. I remember beicompletelyley baffled by the idea of beicompletelytly in love with some one you just met. It was the only two times I have cried out happinessess. To me this is love in it's purest form, there are no conditions, no boundaries. You know that these children will break your heart, you will fight and things will be said over the course of a lifetime that are hurtful but you know that no matter what you will love this person for the rest of your life. You will fetheirier pain, heartbreak, joys and laughter and every minute will be worth it.

Next comes to mind Jman, my sweetheart. He is a wonderful man and I am a very lucky gal. But there are times I would love to ring his neck! But wihim im I feel more peaceful than I ever have before. He makes me laugh, makes me feel good. I love doing the normal things with him, cooking dinner can be an adventure when he is around. The world seems more alive when we are together. I was talking about the "situation" with my girlfriend last night and she said "what have you gotten yourself into" my answer is nothing more than what he has got himself into, he has taken on my children full time. His kids need us and what kind of person would I be if I turned my back. But again would I do this if I didn't love the man? Wouldinconveniencence my life like this, I don't know. I may not go to the end of the earth for Jman but I will do a lot more than I would for any other man in my life.

You can't have a future with out a past. I don't think I could recognize or value the relationship I have with Jman with out my past lovers. Each and every one of my past relationships have taught me. They have taught me patients, and self respect. I have learned that I don't have to loose me to be in a relationship. I have learned that if a man truly loves me he won't turn my life upside down just because it suites him. I have learned that wounds do heal and that I can survive I am strong. I have had lovers teach me that I am beautiful in my own way, a way that is truly unique to myself. I have had lovers teach me about my own temper and self control. I have been taught that growing up doesn't mean I have to be an adult all the time and that letting go isn't always giving up sometimes it's for the best.

Friendship I saved this for last because I believe it is one of the best loves you can have. I am lucky I have an amazing bunch of friends that have stuck by me through thick and thin. I couldn't ask for anymore. We share inside jokes, we cry on each others shoulders, we laugh until we cry. A significant other is great but no one could ever fill the shoes of my friends.

Bad Dreams and neglect

2006-10-05T06:45:00.000-05:00

Last night I had a horrible dream. It started out ok Jman and I were at a party at a friend's house. We were having a good time mingling and talking with friends. I was sitting with a friend of mine and his boyfriend (it was Luke duke and some other guy?) and Luke was saying how he and his partner wanted to have a baby they just needed a surrogate we were talking for a while about this and I ended up offering to be the surrogate after this conversation I was walking around the party and looking for Jman. I went into a bunch of rooms but couldn't find him, finally I found him in a bedroom with another girl. Next thing I know I am at my house and Jman comes in with his parents and starts packing his stuff, he was leaving me and moving back home. I am in my living room crying trying to get him to talk to me and his mother is yelling at me saying I ruined her son's life. They are talking about the coffee maker and whether or not it is his or mine and we start arguing over that. His dad is more sympathetic I am saying how am I going to afford the bills on my own and he says that can't I swing it and I explain that I could but things would be really tight. I then go into my bedroom where Jman is and try talking to him but he is watching cartoons and I am crying saying that how could he do this we were going to get married and he was the one who cheated, we are arguing and all of a sudden I look up and I am arguing with him but he is a three year old child ...

this is when my alarm went off but I woke up with the horrible feeling and a whopper of a headache!

On other news we had a very tough night last night his kids were over and we have been keeping a close eye on there condition when they arrive. His daughter has been coming in no sox or shoes, filthy and with pretty bad diaper rashes. His son is allowed to rome the neighborhood, is filthy and smelly all the time. I went to change the baby last night and she not only had a horrible diaper rash but it spread down her thighs and looked like burn marks. I have been making Jman take pictures when the kids come like this, for documentation he is going back to court to get custody. Their mother suffers from depression and wasn't raised much better.

I feel awful for these kids, I just don't believe kids should have to put up with neglect. As a parent I know I decided to have my children I picked them they didn't pick me so I know I have a responsibility to them to raise them the best I can. I watched Jman cry for the first time last night over this. He was going to take the baby to the hospital but called the police to make sure he could he was told that he could but if he dropped them off after the court ordered time he would be in violation and it could be considered kidnapping, so inevitably he could do nothing. So she can continue to neglect these children and there isn't much he can do. He was told he could call DSS in the morning but other than that there is nothing that can be done.

I have a feeling I will be in for plenty more tough nights to come as this plays out and a lot more bad dreams.

Pet name??

2006-10-03T10:03:00.000-05:00

I got this from Kelly and I thought it would be fun!

Exotic Dancer Name Is...

Trouble

Exotic Dancer Name Generator

Oh and sooo true!

Me and my little man!

2006-10-02T13:33:00.000-05:00

I posted the celebrity look alikes thing but no pic so I thought I would do a little photo montage!

me

Little man and me

A few of my friends and I

My kids

Jman and I being very silly

And when I get a few of the new hair I will post!

Weekend! (warning a little bitching is probably coming)

2006-10-02T12:26:00.001-05:00

What a loooooong weekend! Today I was glad to get to work, we had the little step monsters (jamns kids) this weekend. I am trying very hard to be sympathetic and understanding but by Sunday evening I wanted to run the little fucker over with my car!

OK let me back up to the beginning.

Friday evening there was a three car pile up on the route I take to get home from work, so I called Jman and told him he would have to pick up my kids and take them with him I will be late. This wasn't a problem for him, he grabbed them and went to get his kids and cash his check. He called me right after picking my kids up and was on the phone with me as his kids were getting into the car and I hear the 9 year old (from hence forth known as saitan's spawn) say (very loudly) why are they here?? Jman says because there mom wasn't home to pick them up. He answers "So" I tell Jman to let me go because it was just fustraiting me that this kids was already acting like this. I finish my rde home and no one is there when I get there so I clean a little and take the dog out. I am sitting in my living room and the door opens and you can here the stampede!

I greet everyone and give Jman a kiss and his son jumps right between us and starts vying for Dad's attention. (I don't play in I just go about my business) He then turns to me and says "look my dad gave me a dollar and he didn't give your kids anything" (again I bite my tongue) and say "well that was nice of your dad to give you that" I then go and start making dinner. He goes into my fridge (with out asking and yes my kids ask) and says "there is nothing to drink all you and my dad do is drink beer" WTF!!! I explane that beer isn't the only thing we drink but as adults we are allowed to have some beers if we feel like it and he could have water" I got "I don't like water" and he stomps off I made tuna helper for dinner and everyone ate with a few complaints but I ignored it. The rest of the night wasn't bad.

Saturday morning we woke up to his children barging into our room through the door closed. The 8 year old goes directley to the dogs crate and lets him out. This got me up and I told him we don't let sneakers out unless I say it's ok I got a whatever! he then starts playing with the dog so I get up and take the dog out. it's 7:30 I don't sleep late but this is not how I want to get up. I made Jman get up becuase my kids were still sleeping. All day saturday he fought with my kids and stomped around the house gave me attitude and dirty looks. (this is shit I don't take from my kids) I went and got my hair cut and colored (that's a whole other blog I haven't colored my hair in 3 years). I came home and Jman was ready to kill saitan's spawn so I said I would take ss and my daughter food shopping with me. (I think the coloring got to my head) I took them and all I heard out of SS was can I have, can I get, and I don't like that... finally I turned and said that he didn't have to like everything I bought because he doesn't eat at my table 7 days a week. I got a "thank god" I told him he could get a snack and he picked out something that was called gripz they were on sale 2 for 5 dollars or 3 dollars each so I told my daughter to grab a box and he immediatley says forget it! soI told my daughter to put it back they were on sale and he says fine! (ungrateful little shit!) I survive the food shopping and head back home.
We get home and get all the groceries in the house I put most away and Jman does the rest I hear a commotion in the kitchen and head in there SS is pissed because my kids were helping and Jman was singing with my son. He is stopping off and changing (he was wearing my sons clothes) into his dirty ones. (because that's gonna bother me) we all ignore it and continue on. Later he is still acting miffed and my daughter says "why are you so mad?" he answers "what do you care." and runs off. We get everyone to bed and the rest of the night we relax and watch tv.

Sunday we aren't woken up by the herd barging into our room but SS barged into the girls room and woke up the baby and my daughter in the process my daughter tells him to get out and he replies I am in here to see my sister and I can come in anytime I want (he is screaming this) I get up and tell him that, that is not the case that he can not just open a closed door it isn't his room and he doesn't have the right. the baby is screaming at this point because this is what woke her up. he then starts to scream at me that I can't keep him from his sister and that he didn't care what I said Jman is up now. And he tells SS that this isn't his room and everyone was sleeping and just because he was up he didn't need to wake everyone up. Nothing like a little morning screaming to get you going! Jman goes to make breakfast and my daughter asks if she can mix the eggs. Jman says that was fine as soon as SS sees this he throws a fit, he wanted to and so on and so on... my daughter just says fine here, and the answer is "forget I don't want to anymore"

The rest of the day it is more sighing stomping and dirty looks as well as the list of rediculously expensive things he wants for his birthday, an Ipod, a boom box, a portable dvd player, and on and on and on. (please I just got an Ipod) and everytime Jman said one present of another was inapropriate he would get angry.
We are getting ready to go visit Jman's parents and I am trying to drop the hint that I don't want to go I have no desire to be around him any longer and need some quiet time it was no good (he isn't the brightest bulb) we get in the car and immediatley there is fighting over sitting arangements I loose it at this point I say that if we can't get along and drop the attitudes we would go no where that my kids would go in thier rooms and Jman's would go home that I could not listen to one more second of any of it. they say ok and we go it wasn't bad but not great.

I went home with my kids while Jman was dropping his off I was drained, exhausted. I just don't know what to do he is a little monster and I don't want to be around him at this point. he is greedy and nasty and mean and grrrrrr. I am biting my tongue I know it must be hard for him.

OK thanks for letting me vent I feel a little better and at least I have two weeks until they come back over.