Thursday, June 08, 2006

Special

Special.... That is a word that can evoke many feelings in a person. But what bout when it comes in the from of special needs? I have a son who is 6 and the love of my life. He is the sweetest boy ever born and I am infinitely lucky to have him in my life. He has what has been diagnosed as developmental delay with ADHD. Developmental delay is a blanket diagnoses for delays in many areas. Which in a nutshell means he has speech, fine motor, and learning delays. We are looking at schools to put him in for first grade which is a huge milestone for any kid. I have never had to go through a lot of the emotional things a parent of a child with special needs go through up until this point. I have always known my son was a special needs child and he has always been in special needs classrooms for pre-school and kindergarten, but they have always worked out well for him and life has been easy until now. Well I have been observing classrooms this week to find the best place for my child. And I am quickly finding out what the emotional rollorcoaster a parent of a special needs child goes through. I have never been made to feel like my child was a problem until recently and I don't know what to do there is this awful feeling of helplessness and hopelessness. I left the meeting with this awful knot in the pit of my stomach and got in my car and preceded to cry for the next hour. I am not even sure what to do with these feelings it horrible.

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

at what point???

At what point are you cheating?? I have been e-mailing with this guy. He's cool and makes my day go by pretty quickley we have been chatting for about 2 weeks and get along very well via e-mail. That being said he is engaged, we discussed this in the beginning because we were on a message board and found eachother just for e-mailing becuase we were bored. But we have been emailing everyday and actually exchanged pictures. Which he says after exchanging them my fiancee would kill me if she knew. My question is this considered cheating I mean it's not going any where like we are gonna meet and it's not going to. But is it mentally cheating? I am trying to think if it would bother me if my significant other was e-mailing someone else....