Grrrr....

Today is just oneof those days! I was 15 minutes late for work and then I go to my car to go to lunch and the damn thing won't start Jman comes down and leaves me his figuring he will jump mine and go home and fix it so we run to the bank and because I don't have enough in my account to cover the check they won't cash it! Fine I will go after work because I am now going to be late coming back from lunch. Jman drops me off and calls me just as I am getting to my desk hmmm the CAR STARTED RIGHT UP FOR HIM!! he took it anyway so that he could look at it and now I have the truck which is a standard and there will be traffic on the way home, because that is just the way my day is going!

ran out of room

Here are some more of the photo's

The kids had a great time little man danced the whole night long.

My dad's band got up and played for a while, everyone who stayed had so much fun.

Finally

I finally got my pictures back and I thought I would share, I really had the best time I am dying to throw another big party of something.

What are You?

You Are a Mermaid

You are a total daydreamer, and people tend to think you're flakier than you actually are.While your head is often in the clouds, you'll always come back to earth to help someone in need.Beyond being a caring person, you are also very intelligent and rational.You understand the connections of the universe better than almost anyone else.

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Just amde me chuckle!!

Jman went to pick up little man on Tuesday and I guess another kid approached him and asked a question

Kid "is that your dad?"

Little man " Yeah and if your thinking he's fat he's not so don't even say it I swear!"

Kid " OK" and walks away


When Jman told me I was howling laughing, what a classic line. That poor kid didn't have a chance!

Blessed ordinanriness

I am reading this wonderful book called " The Monk Downstairs" and there is a line in it that just struck me while I was sitting in my back yard watching my husband mow the lawn. The main character describes reading to her daughter in bed at the end of the day as blessed ordinariness, I love this! I would say that my life these days is blessedly ordinary. I have come through so much strife and drama that just the day to day simple tasks are beautiful to me. Cooking dinner and doing laundry, watching Jman mowing the lawn, these are all tasks we hate but if that is the worst thing in my life then I am ok with that in fact I am ecstatic! For years my relationships and life in general have felt like an uphill battle and now I feel as if I am walking on solid flat land and if people think that being just ordinary is bad than they are looking for something they will never find or never be happy with. All that drama gets you no where passion is great and Jman and I have that in a quiet way not in the soap Oprah version and I think so many people model their lives after what they see on tv and forget that all of it is scripted life isn't scripted and there should be down time so if you like me are blessedly ordinary I say horay for you and embrace this it is simple and beautiful in a way that I never knew could happen to me.

Here's to having ordinary!

reflections

I have been thinking lately about my road and how I landed where I am and the things that have happened along the way. This may sound odd but part of me is greatful for all of the tough times and hard descisions I have had to make because they have turned me into the person that I am today. I am truly and happy yet part of me feels guilty for this, because one of the worst things that has ever happened to me is also one of the largest factors in where I am and who I am. July 16th is the 11th anniversary of my mothers death, that event was truly devestating to me and still is she still haunts me on a daily basis. I know she is always with me and part of me. But there are times that I feel like an amputee that still has the phantom pains of a limb that no longer exist. Talking about her even in good ways still gives me pangs deep in my gut. But if she hadn't passed on I wouldn't be as strong as I am or where I am. I would have had the luxury of living with her of her protection and shoulder to lean on. Instead I was forced to fend for myself and make something of my situation so in a way I have to be grateful for my path and will to survive which I got from my mother. I hate having these conflicting feelings I truly only get this refelctive at this time of year because it still affects me I don't think there is another event in my life that has affected me in even a simular way. I have given birth twice and married the love of my life which in one way or another has had an effect on my journey but hasn't altered my to my core. My husband just enhances who I am and my children bring out instincts I already had. Losing my mother and living on my own at such a young age shaped me, changed me forever and I guess 11 years later I still have not closed that door or come to terms with the fact that I can never go home. I have made a home for my children but the home of my childhood is gone. Home is where the heart is and a piece of that is residing with my mother wherever she may be.

long time!!

I have been so busy I am now a married woman and we moved into a bigger house on June 1st. The wedding was amazing it could not have been better; I keep joking with my husband that I am going to divorce him so that I can marry him again! After all that stress it was 100% worth it.

I am so lucky I was able to marry my best friend.