this girls movin!!

I am moving!! I found a place about an hour north of here and the apartment is amazing. It has three bedrooms which means for the first time in thier lives my littlens will have thier own rooms!! And it has a yard, fenced in and all my kids will be able to play outside! I am thrilled to no end, that being said I am packing like I have gone mad. What befuddles me is that I have soooo much stuff?!?!? where did all of this stuff come from? I don't remeber accumulating all of it and most of it is going in the trash but it amazes me how much is crammed into my little apartment!!

Does size matter?

A friend of mine posed this question to me the other day and I was thinking hmmm how much does it matter and does it only matter in bed well below is what I e-mailed back explaining my theory on size!!

Size it matters to an extent. I have been with a man and been like "is it in yet?" and yes I said that out loud I honestley didn't know. But I have also been with someone who was above average and I was bored out of my skull at times no imagination what so ever!! just a pump and go type of guy and I also dated I guy I refused to sleep with because he had one of those "oh my god you want to put that where??!!??" penises!! I'm serious about this but it hung out the bottom of his boxers! so size matters to an extent I will take average and knows what he is doing over large and in charge any day!! I have a theory on guys who are really good looking and guys with big penises.

Guys who fall into one of those catagories don't work hard when it comes to women first off the good looking ones can get any women (or so they think) and don't care whether or not the one they are persuing that night bites or not and they don't try as hard as the average looking guy. And because they don't care as much and don't have to try to find sexual partners they suck in the sack. Because they don't have to have a talent or be very good in bed to get girls to sleep with them because all SOME girls care about is what the outside world sees and they don't see that that really handsome guy on her arm aint satifying her in the bedroom

Guys who fall into the "tripod" catagory well thier penis size goes to there head they know thier penis is bigger than the next guy and they will always win in the whip it out contest. So they have penis confidence. This my friend can be decieving because these types of men appear confident, women need to be careful because these men are cocky and believe that because thier cock is BIG that it does all the work for them in the bedroom. This is a mistake on thier part because us women are rather complicated "down there" and it takes more than just a large penis moving up and down to do the job.

Now think about an average looking guy with an average sized penis!! He looks like most of the other guys out there and his dick isn't much differant yeah it may lean to the left a little but still is just average. This man needs to come up with something that sets him apart, and keeps a woman cuming back!! These men take pride in thier bedroom anticks and are ussually attentive to the womans needs.

But I do believe that every woman needs to sleep with an ugly guy at least once in her life!!! Why you ask well because these are the ones who put the MOST effort in they get the oppurtunity less often than most and they will truly work for the woman to get off! every woman should know what extent a man should go to, to make sure she is pleased. This way she can try the average guy and yawn in the face of the tripod and the good looking guy!!

does that answer it??

So there ya go!!

Tuesday's

Bleh!!!

Work is sluggish today and I am kinda blah, I can't wait to get home. Tuesday is one of the only nights during the week that I get to go straight home and relax. I am not sure why I am so beat today I had a lovely evening last night with "J".

I worked last night at the gym where it was steamy hot and I think I may have melted a little but that's ok. I went home to a fully cooked meal made by J and we ate in the living room and relaxed on the couch for a while. Then went to bed and watched band camp which was an ok movie but doesn't live up to the American Pie movies at all. Then we snuggled up and went to sleep. He is an excellent snuggler and when we woke up this morning there is something so nice about rolling over and snuggling up to his warm body. I am not sure wheather or not he is coming down tonight he may have to work which kinda stinks because again tuesday is one of my few nights off tuesday and friday through sunday's I don't work at the gym but coming home at 8:30 and spending time with him or having him arrive at 7 and spend time with him I will take option B any day. It sucks cause he lives an hour away and we work opposite night schedules and both of us work days. So I may be solo tonight and watching Big Brother!! Oh well what can ya do!

Falling

OK I am about to gush here soooo if you don't like the mushy change the channel!!

I was e-mailing with a friend of mine who saw me for the first time in a few months and I was catching her up on my situation and I know it's all happening really fast but ME the perpetual committmentphobe isn't running. Go Figure which gets me to thinking and analyzing! Well I guess what they say is right when it's the right one you don't want to run anymore. He is the most amazing man in the world!! He makes me laugh till I snort and my belly hurts! He is sweet and tender. He is crass and loud, which are a plus for me. He is honest and trustworthy. He is everything to me. and I feel like I want to go up to the white mountains and climb the highest mountain and scream all of these things from the top of my lungs!! and yes I am a romantic and yes usually I go for the bad boy or wrong guy, but there is nothing bad about this one no drug problems, he isn't homeless (those are my fovorites!!) and I am happier than a pig in poop!!

We have discussed moving in together! and he spends alot ok most of his free time at my house but if we move in together I would move out of my place and we would get our own place! For the first time I want to live with someone and I want to spend time with them. For the first time my head isn't ready to explode and things are just falling into place. We just fit it's weird it feels like he has alway s been here and that this isn't new at all like this is how it's supposed to be. I have to say this is one of the best feelings I have ever had. It's so weird I used to think adult love kinda hurt at least that's the way it was in my past relationships I always had this hallow kind of aching feeling in my chest when I looked at them. Like I was always longing for more. More what I don't know, but more. Well I look at J and all I feel is this warm sensation like when they give you the anesthesia in your IV that warming sensation right before they knock you out. Thats what I get now and this feeling like everything is going to be ok!! I am amazed at this. And excited all at the same time. Like my life is starting out new! The possabilities are endless with us together and I could have what I thought wouldn't ever happen for me.

OK I'm done for now!!

trailer traits

"I know we have talked about the things we love, hate and gets on our nerves but we haven’t talked about what those secret little “Trailer” things are that we like. Hey, even if you’re wearing a watch in the four figures and shop at Dolce & Gabbana I’m betting you still have a few little secretive things that you either do or like that’s just a little bit trailer. So, common – let’s have ‘em!" posted by http://fruit-on-the-bottom.blogspot.com/

Now I want to think of my "trailer habits" or as I would refers ghetto habits!

hmmm

1. I love to sit on my porch on sunday afternoons and drink cold beers in koozies!
2. I love the blue collar comedy
3. I talk way too loud but like that
4. I will through on my sweats saturday and go no where and if i am not going anywhere on sunday I'll throw em back on


those are some I also swear like a sailor when I'm drinking so chances are there are plenty more!!

hmmm the good 4 letter word

I have been seeing a man for a little while now. A good man. and this weekend we are laying in bed canoodling and he says it to me. I could feel it coming thinking in my head he's going to say he loves me I just knew it was coming and in the next instant he says "you are the only woman I could honestly say I love you to." I actually for the first time in my life caught my breath. I felt like I was hit in the chest and all the air was taken out of my lungs. Now I will admit this 4 letter word is one of the scariest words in the english language. But from this man I don't know it did something to me all I wanted to do was hold him and kiss him and be a part of this. I didn't say it at first again I could barely catch my breath let alone talk. I will say this was huge I haven't been here before. I am forcing myself to accept the good these days . Man what a good weekend!!

a few things that make me ill!!! (stolen from else where but fun bo less!!)

1. Women who can't take care of themselves!!! This drives me bonkers they can't do shit with out a man and play the damsel in distess roll. They are doing every woman a diservice. and I for one have had enough grow and pair and stand on your own two feet.

2. People on welfare for more than a couple months to get on thier feet. I know hard times and I have muddles through and I can't stand when people just get lazy and take advantage of the system then complain when they have nothing or worse complain because you have something when you have every right because you get off your ass and work every god damn day!!

3. Single moms who for no good reason just out of spite give the father of thier child(ren) a hard time about sing said child. Give me a brake if you got a babby's daddy that wants to see his kid isn't a menace to society then count your lucky stars take the brake and let him!! For christs sake you are only hurting yourself and your children when you won't let him see them because he will find a better woman who isn't spitefull and realize it isn't his fault he can't see your kids and guess what eventual the fight leaves him!! MORON!